There used to be a mental hospital in Tallahassee named Sunland Center (called Sunny Land by us awesome locals). I don’t know (or care to know) which stories about Sunny Land are true and which are false, so please read this next section with a lack of concern for historical accuracy.
Sunny Land, as I’ve been told, was a hospital designed to treat and care for mentally and physically disabled children. Due to a lack of funding, however, the facility quickly became overcrowded and was said to have unsanitary conditions and instances of patient neglect. The hospital was closed in the early 80’s, and until it was torn down in 2006, the vacant building was used by adventurous teens and adults as a playground of sorts.
You see, Sunny Land is said to have been haunted. Several people visited the abandoned premises looking for a thrill. Various “sightings” of haunted children were reported. Stories of spooky noises and strange “feelings” were told to kids year after year. I, myself, never visited Sunny Land because I tend to frighten easily. (Need proof? I cried on the mummy ride at Universal Studios – when I was in HIGH SCHOOL.)
But it’s interesting to me… something that was designed for such a beautiful purpose had such an ugly ending.
For a while, I’ve been in a sunny land of sorts. The beginning stages of a sunny land – before good moods are abandoned due to a lack of funding… or something like that. I’ve been truly happy with my life for the past few months: my friends, my family, my job, my church, my running, my goals, my mentors, etc… things have been really great.
But my sunny land is being condemned. The walls are rotting and its purpose has been forgotten. The building (aka my mind) has been recently plagued with issues from the past – issues that the owner thought had been dealt with long ago. Soon enough, happy Lindsey will be nothing more than a thing of the past.
*Cue emo music.*
Ok, so I’m being a tad melodramatic. But recently, some things have surfaced that I realize may not be as “in the past” as I’d like. With the help of some friends, I’m finally figuring out how to let go of these things for good (or so I hope), but it’s really freaking overwhelming.
Suppressing negative thoughts and memories is easy to do, but it has long lasting side effects. Putting old issues to rest, however, is daunting and exhausting and makes me grouchy. The difference, I’m hoping, is that once all this crap is dealt with, my positive self will be around for years to come.
Just like Sunland, we’ve all been created with a beautiful purpose in mind. But debt and ex boyfriends and failed tests and extra pounds and lactose intolerance and bad traffic and any slew of things can get in the way of our beautiful purpose if we let it. If. We. Let. It.
So don’t let it.
Be pre-haunted sunny. 🙂